Its me and my world

You make such a big deal out of winning Not knowing winning and losing are two sides of the same coin   When someone wins There is always someone who loses When someone cries tears of joy   There is for sure someone tears of anguish somewhere   Everyone prepares to win all through their life What an irony! A loss also needs preparedness   Thumping one’s chest in a raw display of pride after a win Is no skill at all Losing with dignity, smile and grace Is no child’s play Losing and not thinking that’s end of the world Now that means you have learnt something in life   Loss or win, success or failure Are just some moments in the play of life You play your part and move on   In the final moment of your life You will hardly remember what you won or lost You will only remember   “Have I learnt the lessons I was supposed to in this life?”   Sujala | 10 th Apr 2023  

  She is from the land of the Vedas And the place of the brightest sages A land soaked by spirituality and devotion for thousands of years Even though the energy has ebbed a bit And the land has almost lost its former glory Due to generations of onslaught by violent tribes Which robbed its purity and denigrated its soul There was still “something” left Enough to let the presence shine Due to changing tide, She left this sacred place To come to an odd new land A land so beautiful yet lacking its soul A land grotesqued by crude materialism Her heart bled, and her soul cried She lost her rhythm And her spirit slowly began to die Until she discovered the part that was hidden She discovered that the new odd land can be loving and charming That it can surprise her in stunning ways And prove to be the perfect bed to sow the seeds of forbearance, perseverance , will, love, wisdom & care And she saw herself to be becoming the woman that she always wanted to be Now she can not but be gra...

Oh you silly ego You think you know! That’s right, you only “think you know” Because the seed of knowingness is hidden in the tenderness of the heart It’s the heart which gives birth to awareness You want to prove Grab , possess & show off And love to play this game of one-upmanship This leads to a desert called “nowhere” Heats the head and bleeds the soul The heart which is drenched in love & wisdom is free and strong And it can fill cracks Heal wounds Join minds Create a life of celebration You silly ego Silly you will always be And one day you will get this truth Walking on the path is walking from head to heart And the GIVER is always BIGGER ! ~ Sujala 31st Mar, 2023

Finding your place under the sun can be tricky Especially if you do not conform If you are a little offbeat A little unusual, a little differnt But my heart leaps up with indescribable joy And warms up with gratitude beyond words To know that I have found your hand to hold me To gently nudge, push and pull And that the universe has chosen to reveal itself in all its glory To me Bit by bit That I am the chosen one One of the cherished ones of the divine To be walking the path I do feel lost even now, once in a while The boat of life can become a bit rocky And water can come up right up to my nose, but no further Your reassuring presence wraps all my senses To comfort me in all its tenderness To remind me That my unusualness is my greatest gift And I am still a cherished one of the divine ~ Sujala 29 th Mar, 23 

  The river of life flows on moment to moment The grief of separation migle with the ecstasy of union One moment a rainbow And the next moment, a dark thundering cloud Sometimes the purity of joy and love And some other times, despondency of hatred, anger and jealousy  The highs of life dance with lows with ease Oh, what a contrast! But the river never stops flowing  Almost oblivious of what it brings to its beholders Unfaltering in its singleton mission  To merge , dissolve and dissapear ~ Sujala, 23rd Mar 2023

 Of all the things sweet in my life If I have to pick the sweetest The honor will surely to the feeling when I am meditating When everything else softens The thoughts and the feelings The memories and the events fleeting When the depth and the expanse of the present moment reveals itself When I am there and yet not quite And the warmth and the glow of my own being wraps around me And I am but left with a throbbing titillation And a sweetness so pure, so palpable That I am simply bursting with love, peace and happiness When "I only am"  ~ Sujala , 23rd Mar 2023

  I found this resplendent beauty Tucked away in a corner Petals soft creamy & white Delicate and fragile AND YET Holding waves of grace, peace and strength in her bosom Blossoming in her full bloom in a lonesome place Unmindful that her strength and beauty will largely go unnoticed. AND How long more do I have to wait before I become her Before I stop craving for others’ validation for small things Before I become so serene, strong & centered That I treat glory and meanness the same way… How long more … ~ Sujala , 10th Mar, 2023

दर्द तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे ,      तुम न होते तो मैं खुशियों से रहती अनजान  आसूं तुम्हारी ज़रूते है मुझे      तुम न होते तो मेरी मुस्कान होती फीकी  नफरत तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम न मिलते तो मैं प्यार का कैसे करती कीमत  रात तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम्हारे बिन मेरा दिन होता बेरंगिन  अँधेरा तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम रौशनी को करते हो और रोशन  भय तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम्हारे बिन मेरी हिम्मत बांधती कैसे  शक तुम्हारी भी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम्हारे बिन मेरा इरादा पक्का होता कैसे  कठिनाईयाँ तुम्हारी ज़रुरत है मुझे      तुम्हारे बिन मेरी शान्ति में होती कैसे गहराई  तुम सभी मिलके बनाते हो रंगोली मेरे जीवन में  वादा करो की तुम रहोगे मेरे संग आखरी सांस तक  मैं जीवन ऐसे भरपूर जीऊं  ताकि मरने के बाद मुझे न रहे कोई पश्चाताप  की काश कुछ दिन होते और चार  ================...

हमारी ज़िन्दगी भर की तलाश  कुछ लम्हे  प्रेम  के  कुछ प्रेम भरी निगाहों के  और कुछ प्रेम भरे स्पर्श के  लेकिन हमारा प्यास है अनंत जिसका कोई आदि न आंत  वह प्यास ऐसी, किकिसीके प्यार भरे बोल निगाहों या स्पर्श से न मिटने वाली  दर दर भीख मांगने से भी न मिटने वाली प्यास है यह  पर जहा पल दो पल मन ठहरा वही मेरी मुलाक़ात हुई  अपने भीतर ही प्रेम के विशाल सागर का  जिसकी लहरों पे तैर रही हूँ मैं  जैसे ही साहस बांध के डूबकी लगाई वैसे ही पाया  मैं ही तो हूँ वह अथाह सागर  मैं ही तो हूँ जिसकी मुझे है तलाश  उस एक पलने बना दिया दीन से रानी मुझे  बस  मैं देती जाऊं, देती जाऊं ,और देती जाऊं  क्योकि यह न ख़तम होने वाला प्रेम रूपी पानी  मेरी ज़िन्दगी भर की तलाश की कर देती है सम्पाप्ति  और देती है है मुझे परिपूर्ण तृप्ति  ================================================================= We keep searching for that elixir called love in some quiet moments with someone or in someone's eyes or in someone's...

 Main mahfooz hoon apne antaratma ki kendra bindoo mein Jahan hain na koi zindagi ka daur , na sambhando kee nok jhok Jahan main hoon azad jaise ki gagan mein pankh pasare udti mast chidiya Anand aur sookon ki aisee lahar  prem ka aisa ahsaas manon ki meri maa mujhe sahla rahi ho mujhe usee jagah bar bar hai jana  Kyonki iss duniya ka sabse khoobsurat jagah hai wohi ! ================================================================ I am safe in the cave of my heart where I am far away from this maddening world Where I am free like bird in the wide blue sky Where I find joy and peace  I find so much love as if my mother is caressing me I want to go back to that place again and again Because that is the most beautiful place in the whole world  

Iss jhooth ke bazar mein Sach ko dhoodne niklee main Sach ka deedar karne ko dil tadap uttha Par sach na mila Kiss mukam pe baitha hai mera antarang sathi Jiski ek jhalak ke liye tadap gaya mera mann Asoon nikle bhi to kya jawab hai un asuyon ka Kaun hai jo mera bahut kareeb Par hai mere se rootha “main” hi kaun hoon, kya hai meri wajood Meri atma tadap gayee mere maula ki ek jhalak ke liye Kuch aise shabd ate hai kano mein “Main hoon manzil, main hoon safar bhi, main hi musafir hoon” Par saise samjhaoon main aapko mere mann ki bechainee Aapka deedar korne ko apne andar gotar lagatee rahatee hoon Par bhi yeh pagal man aapka ek pal ka deedar karne ko pyasa ============================================================  In this world of falsehood, I have started the journey for seeking truth My heart is aching for a glimpse of the truth But alas truth has not appeared so far Where is my beloved hiding, whose one glimpse is what my mind is restless ...

Tu to hai sooraj kab se apne ko ek kiran samajh baithe Tu to hai khula aasmaan kab se apne aap ko baadal samajh baithe Tu to hai gehra samudra kab se apne aap ko lehar samajh baithe Tu to hai chandrama ki sheetal chandni kab se apne aapko chandrama ka daag samajh baithe Tu to hai ek aisa vriksha jiskee chhao mein hai lakhon ko vishram lena Tu to hai ek aisee bijlee jise ghane andhero ko roshan kar jana hai Tu ruk mat, tujhe aage badhte jana hai jo hua woh achha hua, jo nahin hua woh bhi achhe ke liye hua Jeevan ke man-rupi tufano se darna nahin vichar aur bhav to musafir hai, aate jate rahenge tu apne pakke iradon se chukna nahi teri bhakti hi teri shakti hai Jeevan baahein failayein tera intezar kar rahi hai tu ruk mat, tujhe aage badhte jana hai!

What do you weep for ? For something that was never yours ? For something that only appears  ? For those castles in sand which are going to be washed away any moment ? In the illusion that we call as world, the real precious hides itself in the bosom of creation Whereas the the mundane appears up again and again Alluring us, attracting us , deceiving us again , again and again Yet we do not learn We allow the mundane  fill our senses Where as every soul in the world aches and only aches for the truth For that moment for which we are born Yet we drift away in the ocean of life like a rudderless ship When we get a captain to anchor our ship to the safe harbor The voide is filled The restlessness dies down The tears of misery gets turned into tears of gratitude We find the moment we are born for !

Do not get trapped by the beauty of the form Look beyond and get washed away by the beauty of the formless The form can titillate our senses The formless can sweep us off our senses ! The form can give us pleasure of a few moments The formless can give give us pleasure of lifetimes The form flaunts the trivial, the formless conceals the sacred Look beyond and get washed away by the beauty of the formless The form binds us, the formless frees us Look beyond and get washed away by the beauty of the formless Let your spirit rock with the formless Let your mind melt with the formless Let your senses disappear with formless Let your  love find its final destination with the formless Let all the forms merge into the formless Look beyond and get washed away by the beauty of the formless

Beauty is one moment deep ! Last year in the month of October my family and I had visited Darjeeling – the land of the queen of hills Kanchenjunga ! One chilly morning we made the way to Tiger hills, one of the most famous tourist spots in Darjeeling . For those who do not know, Tiger Hills is one the best spots nearby Darjeeling to get a panoramic  view of Kanchenjunga range and rising sun. So we left the hotel at 3:30 am and reached the place by 4:15 or so. Even at that time, during the chill of the early morning and amidst the huge crowd of expectant tourists, the hill top looked enigmatic with the blanket of bright stars and moon overhead ! Everyone was jostling to get a place for the best view for the sun and peak . The energy was that of excitement and joy through out the hill top. Like the many others I was darting my eyes to and fro from the range and the place from where the sun was suppose to rise. Little by the little the colours of the sky started changing from black...

 Heard this beautiful story from a participant of the Happiness that I am taking with Chandrani so wanted to share. Uncle (thats how I am going to refer him as he is nearly my dad's age) is a retired Kolkata police officer. Once during his career he had caught a notorious burgler who was creating much havoc and put him behind bars. Soon after his wife along with 4 children appeared in the police station asking him what will happen to them, who will take care of them now as the husband is in jail. Overtook by compassion, Uncle organised for a space in a veggie market and bought her 1000 Rupees worth of veggies to sell , to start with. The family survived. Many years later Uncle was trying to catch hold of a notorious gang of criminals who were murdering people and also doing a lot of other anti-social activities. He was frustrated because he was not able to carck the case. He was moving around in his personal car in that particular area when that same lady appeared before him and...

It was mid October 2014 and I was travelling to Aarhus, a small sleepy city in Denmark from Kolkata for work. The international flight ended at Copenhagen where there was a lay over of 4 hours before I could catch a domestic flight to Aarhus.  After getting down from the aeroplane I felt hungry. I had my hand-bag, my camera bag and a trolley bag containing my office laptop as my hand luggage. The checked in baggage , thankfully was getting directly moved onto the next flight. Being a vegetarian means, first you need to scoop around the area to find the most suitable vegetarian options (Sometimes it means emphatically explaining to the shopkeeper “Egg is not vegetarian, Fish is not vegetarian!”) Finally I could zero in on the shop, queued up, bought food and the coffee and settled down for some relaxation. So I was sitting in the airport , enjoying a late afternoon lunch with coffee and having a video chat over my tab with my folks back at India ! . The airport seemed nic...

My longing for you is as old as the moon As free as the air As beautiful as the spring And as painful as the thirst of a dying man All that river wants to do is to gush and meet its source, the ocean All that I want to do , is to rush and be one with you The entire world tires me It is only your love that can soothe my tormented soul Oh why did you ever let me go ? Do you not long for me the same way as I long for you Do you not want to hold me the same way I want to hold you Do you not ever think of me the way I do  There could be a thousand reasons for YOU to be here I have ONLY ONE,  to be ONE WITH YOU 

What use! What use is the air, if it does not blow and bring comfort What use is the flower, if it does not spread fragrance and beauty What use is the sun, if it does not shine and bring life What use is the water, if it does not quench the thirst of many What use in the tree, if it does not give shade to the weary traveller What use is the leaf, if it does not behold promise of the coming spring What use is the cuckoo, if she does not bring music to others ears O Lord, what use are all my gifts , if they do not ease someone’s pain Do not wipe someone’s tears Do not bring smile to a barren face Or do not kindle beauty, love or radiance in someone’s soul ! O Lord what use are they !!!

The inner space and the outer space Various shades of clouds float in the sky  Adding colour and variety Some are black, some grey and some are white Each has its own tale to tell ! Much like the thoughts that float through our inner space Some are evil, some are confused and some are pure Each has its own tale to tell ! Some clouds may overcast , but only for a few hours BECAUSE when the SUN comes out shining, they melt in the dazzle of its light  Some thoughts may let us down, but only for a few hours BECAUSE when the SELF comes out shining, they melt in the dazzle of its light